February 2010
i love my sister
and my sister loves snow.
what a beautiful girl. i can’t wait to see her grow into a woman.
wait… yes i can.
“This camera is God. Don’t ever walk in front of it.”
– David Turner photographer; instructor
“i feel like there is nothing out there. nothing with energy or creation. ...”
– Luke
January 2010
i prefer
things that are smooth to the touch
silk, worn leather, clean hair, river stones, metal
but things that are rough to the sight
knits, glitter, scruffy men, rocks, lace
that's the beauty of it
how it will never fade.
the emotion, the passion and the feelings will never ever go away.
a sensation of the mind rarely felt before.
the most beautiful part of a mind is that only you can enter it.
but what makes me sleep at night would give them nightmares.
what happy little minions! ripping at the stars.
serpents licking our scars.
and the men are playing russian roulette with...
hahaha!
it’s like catching a kid with their hand in the cookie jar! i love it!
anyway. I just finished Kate & Leopold - hence the Hugh Jackman post earlier. I want to marry a man with that grace and elegance. Just not in that time period.
mr levine.
me: not much has changed. i'm still crazy.
mike: good. i think that's the only way to stay sane.
i trimmed my bangs
and gave Mr. Fox a trim too. we both look better now.
I started Ghost Ocean. I’m on chapter four and I already don’t want to put it down. Peters is such a fantastic writer. I wish I could adapt all of his novels to movies. It would be so much fun.
“If you need another person to validate your own impressions, you interfere...”
– Caroline Myss The Anatomy of the Spirit
it was definitely
a better day today. i spent some time with adam, got a call from work saying i don’t have to go in tomorrow, and i took a trip down to the library.
i picked up two great books on personalizing your spirituality. tailoring your meditations, rituals, and even beliefs to something that fits you and not necessarily tradition. it got my brain working very very quickly which i’m...
“seeing and admitting the truth about ourselves, about our role in creating our...”
– Caroline Myss Anatomy of the Spirit
beautiful (and strange) lingerie
found here.
i definitely can’t afford it.
but i’m sure i could create something similar…??
this line however suits my personality MUCH better
what a fascinating project! →
so i've been really bored lately. in case you...
What if Obama came to your door and asked for all your guns?
I would ask him why the hell he came to my house. And if I could photograph his puppy.
How do you tell the difference between love and lust?
when you love someone your intentions are aimed toward their happiness. when you’re lusting after someone your intentions are aimed toward your happiness… the happiness in your...
my grandfather
is in the hospital with kidney and heart problems. my mother and her sister are flying down to visit him. i wish i could fly down to be with my sister and our pets but i have to work and mom was able to get everyone situated and taken care of. she said not to try too hard to come down just yet. if things turn around for the worse though, i will have to arrange a flight to the south.
i am not...
more questions.
What is missing in the United States?
class.
What would you do if you never had kids?
what i’ve been doing without kids… photographing and babysitting them. i do admit that i need a daily dose of children and that’s the best way to get it.
What would you do if you caught your significant other in the act of cheating on you?
tell him she’s not worth it. cry. ...
questions.
The person you like at the moment finds someone new, what is your reaction?
I would be devastated. But if he really loved her and she wasn’t a bitch I would find a way to get over it. But I could never ever stop loving him. And I could never let him out of my life.
You see someone running around naked in the street. Your reaction?
I would smile. Very big.
Have you ever had a best...
i'm at home
while mr. fox is out with a few guys from his new class. i’m trying to enjoy my alone time however it’s difficult when the upstairs neighbors sound like they’re in my living room with me. so obnoxious.
i sent out all of my cover letters and resumes today and i even got a response from a hallmark graduate! she says she’s constantly looking for assistants and retouchers. ...
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two of my photos
SHOCK and ATOMIC
are going to be on display for an entire year in the corporate office of my employer.
never before has someone unrelated to me wanted to print and display a photo of mine simply because they liked it. and i don’t mean “oooh gimme a print to put on my corkboard!” these photos are going to be B I G. and N I C E. Hallmark printed my self portrait big and...
not much
has been going on lately.
i met a czech family and i’m going to sit with their son Adam on monday. so that’s pretty exciting! and early in the morning luke and I are going to model for Bailey’s art historical reference/self portrait. we will both be half asleep and cold (especially since i’ll be in a dress) but at least it’s a hallmarker we get to help out. i...
“say my name and his in the same breath; i dare you to say they taste the same.”
– Fall Out Boy Folie A Deux
my mom just sent me
the best care package of all time.
champagne glasses
magazines
a bottle of riesling
homemade cookies
and a cookbook.
she’s pretty much the coolest mom of all time.
good dick is a very interesting movie
there are more odd, awkward moments than there are good ones. it kept my interest enough to finish it though.
“I got more sleep than I have in a long time with you in my bed last night.”
reminds me of me and fox. the two of them are sweet together.
i think that...
at least i hope that… she might be over it? she certainly won’t forget it. but i hope she’s come to terms with everything. come to terms with herself. i hope she’s doing well.
i met a beautiful family today
i have met lesbians before and i have heard of lesbians living together with children. never have i stepped foot into the life or home of a lesbian couple. lily and ross are very sweet, gentle women who are life partners. they have four children - two boys and two stunning girls. they need a babysitter so i was invited to their home to meet them and their children. the kids were very excited...
new header shot.
taken at the greenfield fair. clint put this oh so beautiful fake flower in my hair. lol. it fell out and as i reached down to pick it up charity snapped that photo.
her site.
http://charitygoh.com/
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“so i saw this kid james
standing under a balcony
and he was playing music
for...”
– a fantastic friend named Duncan left this on my voicemail. The most unique individual I have ever met. In all seriousness.
sipping wine
with my delicious fox. oh how i love him.
still waiting on any sort of responses from the places i applied to.
tomorrow, i’m sending out emails to local photographers and possibly applying down at the video store? they’re hiring.
idk. haven’t decided yet. i don’t think they would pay well. and it would be quite boring i’m sure.
i’m definitely getting...
write one leaf about momentum
it’s a beautiful thing. one of the best feelings in the world.
the movement of my body throughout the air, on the hard floor, against another body.
on my feet, on my side, on my arms, my back, my stomach.
momentum sending me over, under, but mostly, around.
sending me up.
momentum allows me to be caught, tilted, carried, and twirled.
momentum allows me to continue dancing forever and...
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write one leaf about a favorite poem
luke wrote one of my favorite poems. i’m not a big fan of poems. i don’t read poetry often but sometimes i come across something that’s phenomenal. i won’t say that luke’s is my number one favorite but it’s definitely beautiful. i won’t post it here since it isn’t my work, but I will admit that it gets my heart pumping and my goosebumps rising.
...
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write one leaf about walking slowly
I never walk slowly. I feel like it’s a waste of time.
but the world is so beautiful. why don’t you want to look at it all?
because i’m an artist. when i want to enjoy the world i don’t pass it by with a wave and a smile. i have more respect for it than that. i will stop. i will focus specifically on what is around me, provided i have the time and the interest. ...
write one leaf...
it’s a blog that assigns a subject every day to it’s followers. that subject is meant to be written about. just to keep the creativity and writing moving and flowing.
I’m going to follow it. and post my “leaves” here.
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fact #1
I tend to look away as I’m typing. I do it to watch tv, as I think of how I want to word something or to watch my boyfriend show off his dance moves.
my hands have permanent muscle memory of the keyboard. it allows me to type quickly without missing what’s going on around me. i love typing. it’s a little ridiculous how much i love it.
oh well.
people make me laugh
especially the immature ones.
i block people on facebook when i don’t want them talking to me.
that’s what blocking and perhaps “de-friending” is for.
a tool that easily removes people from the cyber part of your life.
quite useful actually.
but honestly. to “de-friend” someone as a way of insulting them? well, to be honest, it’s not that...
a second chat that just occured...
via facebook chat from room to room
scout. i see you baby...
luke. lies
scout. no no no. you're supposed to say "shakin that ass"
luke. my ass remains stationary....
whoah...
checked my sitemeter again.
she’s all over me! it’s insane! lol. i wonder why i’m so over everything and she’s so not.
what can i say? i guess i’m an interesting character.